I Am Me

It is often difficult to define me. To place me neatly into a category that makes “normal” sense to this linear world. When people ask, “So, what do you do?” I often chuckle, not out of confusion but out of good humor - because, truly, that is a good question. What do I “do”?

When I think back to childhood, I remember how often adults asked that same question in a different form: “What do you want to be when you grow up?” My answer then, and still now, is honest - I don’t know.

What I do know is who I’ve become through the twists, turns, heartbreaks, and awakenings of my life. Who I’ve re-discovered myself to be, not by choosing a single title, but by embracing the many that flow through me.

I am a cellist, yes - that will always be true. But the way I play, the energy that moves through my bow, the depth of my sound - those have changed since returning to Ottawa and raising my two boys alone. My music is not what it once was - it carries life in it now. Loss. Resilience. Devotion. It is not a performance; it is a prayer.

I am also a writer, a poet, a lover of words - an architect of meaning who sculpts language into reflection.

I am a warrior - a fighter for truth, for integrity, for the essential spirit that the warrior represents. A believer in the discipline and balance that the warrior’s way brings not just to the individual, but to the collective spirit of humanity.

I am a podcaster, a speaker, a storyteller - someone who prefers conversation over debate, and connection over discourse.

I am a business owner, a property healer who works in unseen spaces - the energetic and spiritual layers of homes and land that many do not consciously understand, yet feel every day.

I am a mother - a fierce, loyal, single mother. Though my path has not led to the story of partnership I once imagined, I still deeply believe in the sacred foundation of two-parent homes built on love, integrity, and commitment.

I am a healer, a sage, a woman who has walked through many fires and traveled across worlds - both physical and spiritual - to gain understanding, to grow capacity, to hold space for the healing and evolution of my soul and the souls of those who cross my path.

I am a visionary - someone who sees beyond today and into the needs and medicines of the future. Someone who has studied, practiced, and honed the ability to silence and clear the distractions, distortions, and noise that keep us from hearing or seeing the truth. I envision. I know. I trust.

And finally, I am human - a being who listens to the whispers of nature, who feels her heartbeat echo within my own, whose energies course through my veins and feed the pulse of my spirit.

In another time, I might have been called a renaissance woman - an artist, inventor, explorer of many realms. A soul who doesn’t fit into one box, but instead weaves between them, creating bridges where others see boundaries.

So rather than define or confine myself to any one title, I now simply say: I am an artist. Of the musical arts. Of the healing arts. Of the warrior arts. Of the literary arts.

I web and weave through the worlds of creation, allowing each to shape and move me as I go. I continue to say yes - to the flow, to the unknown, to the call of Creator that guides me where I’m meant to be.

I will continue to show up, fully and authentically, in every space and season of my life - no matter how uncertain or uncomfortable it may be.

Because I trust.

I believe.

I am me.